Nonagon Infinity and Mental Illness

Nonagon infinity and mental illness

Playing a game of kings cup and the girl with layers of make up exfoliating from her face like an onion that makes me cry, gets question master. Question 1 Who's ever done 69? (omg what is this grade nine, I'm way too cool for you hoe). First finger down. Question 2 who has ever smoked a spliff? (giggles lightly as she says it). Finger two down. Question 3 who has ever wanted to kill themselves? (the crowd looks around and it seems that I'm the only one with three fingers down). I can feel exile and repulsion from their glares, I just sit back quietly and sip on my whiskey and coke, trying to fill the dark hole that is my heart. Hahahah wow that was weird right, didn’t happen to me but is loosely based on what happened to one of my close friends. What I'm trying to get at here is that coming forward saying you have mental issues is for the most part counterintuitive. Society tells us to come forward with our problems and that our friends and family will help with the issue but tbh I beg to differ. Let's start with the family. So you've been suffering from some depression; happy days seem so absurd, seeing couples hook up in front of you sends you ideas from horror films, seems like a good idea to maybe hang yourself or a latent gun beamed for your head (Mr.beat). It's not a rational idea but emotions have capsized your brain. You tell your mum “Hey, mum how was pilates? That's good! and on a side note I have a strong urge to decapitate myself”. Your mum breaks down in tears and asks you why why why johnny, you can't do this to me right now. This is the paradox of mental illness, is that going to make you feel better? No, you're running to the kitchen to grab a knife (gamma knife). A common result of telling your family would be you going to have to see a psych, where they try to set up life plans for your mind not to be fucked. This is a good thing I should say but what about the social anxiety inflicted from going through this process. You're categorised as a crazy person, which thus increases the isolation of mental illness. Maybe get given some drugs that change your personality but then are you really you? Did you find self happiness, not really it's artificial, living in a tweaked virtual world (invisible face). Keanu reeves is essentially a prophet so take the red pill!

Retrospectively however, what about friends? There meant to be your friends right. But on the flip side friends are bitchy, gossip is the bees knees of a conversation starter, most the time we can't help it (people vulture). So generally it isn't a good idea to just tell any friend cause the fact that you can't sleep at night from the anxiety of what you will choose for breakfast tomorrow, will spread like wildfire, and you'll have some a hole sting you in the back and just tell you to wait for brunch (Big fig Wasp). In sight of this how do you tell your best friends. Generally you are going to be pretty nervous to tell them that you have a screaming voice in your head every time you close your eyes, “what are they going to think of me, what if they won't like me anymore”. Easiest option would be telling them when you get drunk so 1. you have the confidence and 2. they aren’t phased by much. But the down fall to this method is that they might forget it or it may be too awkward for them to bring it up sober (caught in the loop again). This is as the majority of people who haven't been through some type of mental illness find it hard to understand it. Like Bruce Jenner trying understand a period (Wah Wah). Think you get the point and people that have experienced some type of metal illness are probably the only ones still reading this cause all the “normal people” would have been like what is this shit I'm going to touch myself to Jersey shore. Or something like that. Anyways you get my point. So if you have a mental illness you want to tell someone that has similarly experienced what you are going through as they might have some tips. Cause everyone else really has no idea. This also transposes the loop of telling people about mental illness. As you are telling ,mental people that you are mentally ill....? Wanna cut ourselves together, na sorry I have to roll to Bunnings and back or otherwise I think I will explode but I can get you a Stanley knife from there, yeah that be sick, thanks (Evil Death Roll). Okay so far we have pretty much established that your damned anyway you go. But I have solution. Pets. Animals are unconditional lovers and can tell when you are feeling down plus the simplicity of there lives dissolves the complexity of yours. So animals are great to treat almost any sort of mental health issue. So if your ever feeling down just hang with a dog or turtle. And this is also a much better solution to being on social media all day or reading this blog (robot stop). However, this also brings us back to the start as if someone walks in on you talking to your turtle eg “hey Mr. turtle, jenny was so mean to me today and I hide in the bathroom and cried for hours”. The person seeing this is going to think your more mental then before. So nonagon infinity opens the door every way you go.

P.S- Being mentally fit is like being physically fit it doesn’t happen over night it's something you work at everyday and eventually you get stronger and get a 6 pack in your brain. Also look out for underlying signs of your friends reaching out (HELP ME PLEASE HELP ME, I REALLY NEED YOUR HELP, I WANT TO BE THROWN UNDER A ROAD TRAIN NAKED)